Are there any other insomniacs out there?  I have the worst time going to sleep at night and then wake in the morning feeling unrested.  Today I took a (I think much needed) nap.  The problem is now I can't go to sleep.   I know people who can sleep for God and country.  I wish I was the type of person who could go just sleep anytime.  I've sure you've seen them.  They fall asleep at the movies, in a chair, on the plane, at the dinner table.  Once at a family dinner my cousin's boyfriend fell asleep during the meal.  I was appalled, yet entertained. 

Oh, and the guy texted me back.  Erm...see previous entry if you care.  I'm so pathetic. 

You know that sinking feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when you send out a text message or an email and the person doesn't repond right away?  Well, maybe you don't.  Regardless, I have that feeling.  I've been feeling a bit isolated today.  It's silly; no, it's really silly.  It's not like I haven't received any emails or texts; it's just that I haven't received them from the people I really want to hear from.  How lame is that?  I'm always chasing after boys.  The trouble is that when the guy starts to like me I usually find some reason to push them away.  Either that or I joke around too much and they can't tell if I'm messing with them or if I really like them.  I'm really just scared and use my sense of humor as a defense mechanism. I think this lonliness that I'm feeling today is just a bad case of PMS.  I'll be riding the Crimson Tide within the next couple of days and when it's over all will go back to normal.  I'm going to keep telling myself that.  I just wish I knew what normal was...   

Would this freak out anyone else?  I'm not trying to knock the male (or female) libido, but I just found that this was too much information.  This is the condensed version of the story.  I went over to a friend's house to watch a film - a teen cult film that was in no way pornographic.  It has some semi-sexual moments, but mostly I would just classify it as a good laugh.  So my friend and I sat on his bed (fully clothed with no physical contact) and enjoyed the film.  After it was over we were supposed to go back to my place to a play a boardgame with my roommates.  Instead Mr. Macho decides he can't be bothered to walk over to my house (it's a whooping 10 minute walk).  Anyway, feeling slightly annoyed I head back to my humble abode.  When I get home I sign on to my computer and Mr. Macho ims me to apologise for his lame excuse.  He tells me that his change of plans had nothing to do with the distance to my house, but instead with something he had to take care of.  So, I'm like, 'What, you had to take a crap'? To which he replied, 'Not exactly, it was more of a guy thing...'.  Ewwwww.  I was so grossed out. 

I'm such a prude.  Why do people feel it's ok to share these things with their friends?  Urgh.   

BTW, this wasn't the guy in the previous entry.  Sadly, if the other guy had told me this I probably would have been turned on.  Geez...